I smoked just about a pack a day for for or five years.

 

I haven't had a cigarette since Thursday, 9:00 a.m. 

 

When will i stop wanting one?!

 

AGH!

A lot of things have changed since my last post. I guess thats what happens when you dont update for nearly a year. I lost my cats, lost my car, lost the boyfriend i had..... got another and nearly lost him. Lost my apartment, my sanity, and for awhile my will power.

 

I'm turning things around now.

 

I haven't smoked in 39 hours.

I haven't drank in almost 3 days.

 

Gonna do it the right way next time.

I haven't been updating. I'm reading Bukowski right now. Between that, working, and partying I don't have much time. Or much to say really.

I don't have a job. I'm not in school.
BUT I have the best boyfriend in the world.
And I've seen cursive and man man two times in the past two weeks.

Simply amazing.

I can't think like a normal person.
I can't sleep like a normal person.
I can't eat like a normal person.

But I'd be willing to bet all that I'm worth that I can love better than anyone.

I like it that way.